so, I find, often, when I am about to have a breakdown, even a mild one, I get a sensation for a couple of weeks before that its coming. I say a sensation, because its too much to put into a couple of words. Things start splitting alot, I lose time, I lose track of the days of the week/month....

You guys might remember me posting about it last spring. I felt it for a couple weeks before, and it happened. Last time was pretty bad.

Well, I am starting to feel the storm clouds moving in again. Im scared. Im going to tell pdoc at next appointment. I just, dont want to go through last spring again. It was so hard, and painful.

And I feel like I am stuck here just waiting for it to all hit me.