I am a PT college student and I have a professor that triggers the hell out of me. Some of the trigger is based on her hard *** teaching style in combination with me being self critical and wanting an A - high standards for testing well and knowing the material. The last 4 classes I've wanted to burst into tears. Thankfully I'm able to hold it in (barely) until I get to my car where I can let it out. In class I have moments where I feel overwhelmed and l want to cry when I envision going up to my professor after class to challenge her (this is a trigger from my childhood). However during class I'm able to raise my hand and ask her to restate something if I didn't 'get it all' in my notes etc...

I know what the trigger is/what it relates to in my past and yet I'm holding back the tears.

If understanding what is bothering me is not enough to stop the tears when do they stop? When do I stop getting frustrated and judgmental of myself? I feel like I'm barely keeping it together.