I dissociated in my therapy session today, talking about a CSA memory. I have never done this before, ever. It was so scary. I don't want it to happen again, I'm afraid it will. She grounded me and was calm about it. I didn't cry or anything, I don't really cry in session, but I was so shakey and just out of it. I was so exhausted afterwards... I don't want to do this anymore .