The relationship[ is over and I understand that. Ive been trying to work on my happiness and I just feel so stuck. I go through bouts of severe sadness. I can be somewhat not sad for a little while. But the reality of everything keeps hitting me and sending me into uncontrolable crying. I wake up in the middle of the night and just lose it. I will be at work thinking about everything and it just hits. I almost feel bipolar but I dont think that is it. The pain just seems to feel like its getting worse and worse. Its getting so unbearable. its hard to talk to anyone around me about how I really feel. Everyone just says it will get better in time. Im losing all hope. Maybe I am in the wrong place to talk about this. I havent told the therapist I am depressed but I have explained how all of this stuff has happened. Even when I am talking to her I have to struggle to keep away the tears. If I can ever get my mind off of the things going on I can function. I just dont know anymore.