Wow, I really can't belive how much your posts have made me think back. It's seriously like I've been picked up and placed back in time. I can see it. And feel it.
Reading your posts reminds me of how new and exciting cutting used to be. How naive and innocent I was before the reality set in. I wish I could go back to those days when it was fun and it helped more than it hurt.
I'm sorry about everything you're going through and I really hope I didn't say anything to offend or upset you. But please be safe. And I know right now it's fun and all, but seriously, be careful.
And like Agma said try and find something else before it gets out of control. It'll happen faster than you can imagine.