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Rhapsody said:
I am SORRY - - - what a scary place this must be for you right now.... and here I was just thinking of how good it would be if my DID was to go full blown again so I could forget, forget it all.... I guess it is true - we need to be careful of what we ask for.

Hang in there and know that I am here for you.... YOU are STRONG / YOU can do it.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

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Thanks Rhap.

I did forget and lose time last time, but then I also had periods involving SI and it was fairly bad. On top of that, I was in what they think now was a mixed episode(I've recently been diagnosed Bipolar 2) so even the times I WAS present, I felt awful.

I can definetly see the attraction to just sinking away into blankness and hiding. But, I find with the way my system works, something always jolts me back.