(((Tinkerbell...)))
You are going through a very difficult time right now. Getting through times like these isn't an overnight process ~ it takes time and hard work. I can definitely understand the struggle that you've been going through lately. You aren't being offensive in any way.
I hope that the supportive and understanding posts on this thread help you feel reassured that you aren't disliked or misunderstood. So many of us care about you!!