Hey RB, just saw your post. (I've been a little erratic lately in keeping up.) It is disconcerting even just with the appearance part, yeah? That part I can relate to for sure. The last few years have had a lot of stress and it seems like it's collecting the toll in short order. I don't really recognize myself in those glancing views and actually, it's kind of disturbing. I'm pretty uncomfortable with it. On a lighter note, I'm growing my hair out (from very short) and it is a goofy looking stage, so I try to not even look!

On the identity part, I find I have those moments most often when I've really kind of just been pulled into situations by floating along and next thing I know, yeah, that "how did I get here?" hits. Like I let go of the rudder or something and didn't realize it. More often (for me) than identity, there are space and time things where I realize (actually, it's more accurate to say don't realize most of the time) I'm kind of in 2 places at once. My brain is one place and my body in another. But not like daydreaming. More like living outside or off-kilter from my reality. Kind of hard to explain. But it's been really pervasive the last couple of months. Which is eminently analzyable, but that is another story.

When you have these moments, do you find them more disturbing or perplexing? Or... disconcerting?

On the other thoughts... you know where I am on that -- you are well-loved, and I hope you always know that.