Thank you all for reading my post. .... In all honesty though. I really could care less about finding a "good" counselor, or the "right" medication. Only thing I really want is to work. I have been a burden on just about everyone in my life since I can remember. I want to be independent and able to take care of myself.

Yet, with how this illness effects me, and with what my counselor has told me about my diagnosis. Yet, I feel with everything I have researched and read thus far. I believe my diagnosis goes even deeper than my counselor knows. I have only been to see him 3 times so far, so he really doesnt know the full effect of what I have been known to go thru on a day to day basis.

With what I have know about Rapid Cycling Bipolar. I believe that my illness is whats called Utradian Cycling. Where a person's moods can alternative back and forth, or all over the place, several times a day. Which definitely fits me to a T .

What I take to help is Fish Oils,which has helps me where nothing I have taken thus far has. Yet, like many other people still have down days on Dr. prescribed medications, I still have my own down days with taking fish oil. What I want most is a job, or a career that I can do within' my ability to work. Yet, I have no idea what types of jobs, or careers fit with how my illness effects me.

I have spent the last 6years pouring over all sorts of forums/ websites looking for suggestions, and helpful advice to this problem of mine. Yet, I have still no closer to finding an answer than I was 6years ago. I just feel utterly lost with this illness. I know I dont wish to be homeless, or a burden on anyone anymore.

I am tired of looking around at my old class mates/ or other people around my age that have, and are successful with what ever they are doing to make their life work for them. ....... I am rambling on now, I will close this out here as I have really nothing left to say about this that hasnt already been said before.

Take care all