Hi.

I have depression quite bad at the moment but also been told I have traits of BPD. Im just trying to gather some information.

It might turn into a bit of a ramble; just for the simple fact that as I write this I feel different inside than to what I feel I project on to paper (so to speak haha).
Anybody else experience that?

My main question actually was; I notice that for a lot of people when they are depressed or just generally frustrated they have a tedency to cry...

I dont. In fact I find it incredibely difficult to cry and always have. It used to set me off with SI due to the fact that I wanted to cry ----> Couldnt cry so it made me want to cry.. Constant cycle lol.

I never really understood why because I can always cry to my dad if he shouts at me but when others shout I tear up then switch off.
Go blank and feel nothing..

Last time I saught out counselling two years ago even the T commented on 'how I just shut down.'

So here is my two questions...

1) Would that be classed as a form of disassociation or 'disconnection'.

2) Does anybody else here find it incredibly difficult to cry?

Thanks