Cathy, so sorry you feel this way. I think here at PC, we can all say we've felt this way in one form or another. Don't be so hard on yourself, instead try to understand your pain from every angle, try to understand where your pain stems from and talk about it. Talking and discussing these issues are (I think), essential for healing.

You came to the right place here at PC. People here are great and understanding, and we can feel your pain hun. I hope you feel better, please return and let us know how you are doing.