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I'm sorry that you are feeling that bad right now. Can you call a friend or someone to be with you and help you to be safe? Another option is to call a crisis line or go to the emergency room. Could you round up all those meds and either give them to someone to keep them for you, or just flush them?

Try everything you can to make yourself safe. Talking to us here is good too. But if you want to know what I honestly have done, yes, I've used SI as an alternative to something worse. I guess it just happened. I was saving up pills, and I think I actually had a bunch of them in my pocket, but they rattled too much, so I put them back in the cabinet. And I made sure that I didn't have anything sharp too, but I still had my fingernails. And it was better than the alternative, even though I wound up getting locked up, but it really could have been worse. It was from there that I started to be able to push off from the bottom and start feeling better.

So, try everything you can to make yourself safe. Consider how you are going to feel about it afterwards, including the next time you talk to your therapist. Are you going to be able to live with what you will have to tell him? When it comes down to it, it really is your decision.

I hope you start feeling better very soon.

Wendy

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