frog0611,

All I got for you is this, since you don't know what to do and feel you are stuck in a rut is to do something completely different.

It'll take some courage but it's the kind of thing that changes lives.

Go off somewhere, take a whole day to yourself and think about the things you would like to change about your life.

Quit your job and find something you might actually enjoy doing.

I wish I had more to offer.

Remember, the quality of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts. Therefore THINK about POSITIVE changes.

We really don't need to - nor should we - put up with unsatisfactory situations - especially if we only have one life to live.

Dig deep, the courage is there in you.

Best wishes.