Right, here goes. This is gonna sound really odd, and Ive never actually told anyone about this before. But Id quite like to hear some non judgemental views and I think here's the place for that!

Firstly, I know that there's no such thing as 'traditional' self harming and people can be self injurious in all sorts off ways. However, I do think it'd be fair to say that there are more regularly used methods off self-harm i.e. cutting.

I used to be a cutter. It worked well for me but its an absolute ***** to explain if it gets seen. Especially the 3rd time when you try and blag you did it 'accidentally' again. I really dont want people to know that its deliberate. So yeah, anyhow, I got caught one time too many. This literally made me stop. I was hospitalised for a week and a nurse saw when she was putting a wrist band on me and yeah, I just got scrutinized for the entire week and when I got out stopped.

Obviously that wasnt the end off it, not very long after I found another way. I basically started beating myself up. I know how insane that sounds, but i used to basically batter my ribs with my hands until they were seriously bruised (probably managed to break a fair few). This was much easier to hide, and also easier to explain.

I also found it a more 'satisfying' method off harming, I think because it was more representative off the pain I used to feel, but i'm not gonna go into that now as this is already an absolute essay!

What does anyone think off this, is this totally insane? I doubt it, but has anyone else ever done this?