Scorpio Eyes-- Welcome; you've come to the right place. Here you'll find tips on emotional control, self-hate, grieving over lost relationships, and the rest of the bundle o' fun that is BPD from people who are fighting the same battles. And you're already taking important steps in seeking out DBT and addressing your physical health. As you note, it's better to learn now than later (or way later, as in my case). Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

Very best wishes to you.