I never wanted to stop smoking - I loved it - I rolled my own and I had a whole routine / ritual that went with it. But I knew it wasn't good for me and for that reason decided to quit. I think SI is similar, you can get that instant fix which feels good, but in the long run it is just not a healthy thing to do.

Yes as above, I would tell T you do not give your consent for sharing and you are an adult so can decide for yourself.