i had a complete meltdown. body and soul. couldn't stop crying. couldn't eat. low beyond description. it was like i didn't know if i existed anymore. void of all emotions. numb in the brain. felt like i had no reason to live. voice was flat. almost like in a trance but you won't be aware of that until someone brings it to your attention. that's when the floodgates opened for me.
knowing when it may begin is difficult. i was in denial i had a problem at first. finally i went and got help. my thoughts-beware of the intensity of your moods or lack thereof. others can see the symptoms before we do. if you're worried about yourself suga it's time to be evaluated.
hope this helps you.