Theres no way that I can admit that right now
I need things to be okay somehow
If I were to admit what darkheart told me
then I would be bound by it with no way out, can't you see

But if I just continue on
and believe what I must
then things will be okay
this is all I can trust

So excuse me if I won't say it
I know I am depressed
but I can't afford to be right now
I'll play it off as being stressed

everyone else will believe it
those around me everyday
but I can't get away with it on these forums
I guess that will have to be okay

Admitting it is like admitting defeat
I need to be bigger than my illness
I have just too much going on
to be so defenseless

but I don't know what I should do
continue the farse or give in to the truth

i don't handle this well
as it is clear to see
anger is my defense
safe, it has always kept me