Guhh wrote such a long repky and lost it!!!

Yeah, i do think thats a good idea but the thing is.i dont wanna hurt anyone.else. I did try rugby.

I have a bit off a love hate relationship with pain. Im scared off pain, but i love it. It makes me feel powerful when.i take it. But it makes me feel.weak as **** when.im scared off it.i dont know why, i just want it. Its like a part off my life and i miss if it if its not there. I just wish sometimes i coukd click my fingrrs and the bruising be gone. I dont really know, its hard to explain. I dont even understand myseld.