So, it's been a few days since I've posted. I'm starting to get to know a few people around here through chat, but still don't know many people. I don't want to feel like I'm bothering people when I post, I just thought this was a good way to get things out. This may be a lengthy post as there's been some developments within my family.

Our youngest son who agreed to pay part of the rent and is on the lease approached us on Monday to let us know that he's moving out on Friday. And will not be keeping his word. He's 19 (soon to be 20) and is engaged to a girl he's known three months. We won't allow her to live with us which is what spawned this decision. I'm both frustrated and worried currently. He's the youngest and thinks that he can rule the world. A friend of the family put it best about him living in a fantasy world and believes that the world is completely trustworthy. My wife has been able to let go of it, but I haven't. I want so badly to shake him to find out what's going on in that brain of his, but he thinks he knows it all. I know that we have to let our children make mistakes. We believe that he is bipolar, but has no insurance to be able to see a doc. His fiance also has mental health problems, but is not being treated currently. I don't know what or how to say. I was able to hold my tongue the evening he brought this up (had I opened my mouth it would have been nothing but UGLY).

New topic:
I'm currently out on Short Term as I am receiving treatment for another manic episode and med adjustment. My wife came to pick me up from group today and came in and got me out of group as there was a problem with our car. It was stuck in reverse and would not go in to park or anything. We called the mechanic and received news that it may be our steering column. The reason I bring this up is that I haven't gotten paid at all since I've been off and we're behind on a couple of bills. The good news is I get paid this week, but I'm concerned there won't be enough to go around. I'm FREAKING OUT! We've depleted our little amount of savings and rent is due in two weeks. This is an issue as our son was paying half the rent every month...AAARRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH

Okay, I'm done ranting. I can't seem to find that positive thinking that I had up to Monday.