I think if you realize that the only thing holding you back is yourself you will be able to shake off that fear and move on. There is no such thing as crazy. You need to stop repressing your true self. This society is sick, not you. I hope you can remove yourself enough from these ******** labels that you can see yourself for what you are, completely sane. Do not let the people around you define who and what you are, and that includes the institution of psychology.

(just to be perfectly clear I am not demeaning your feelings and thoughts or your suffering. It is very real what you're feeling and going through, but thinking that it is permanent or something to fear is completely unfounded and you need to get rid of that thought pattern or you will never grow. I know it's hard espeically since they are constantly beating that stuff into your head, but there is nothing wrong with who you are, regardless of what ANYONE says to you.)

I honestly believe you will be okay and I hope you can believe it too. I believe we will all be okay one day and there is nothing to fear.