I can relate ((((Shadow)))) It's a very painful topic for me.

Part of it for me is about the grieving process. Thinking of (or being reminded of) what could have been still just breaks my heart.

It's especially hard when I am in the office and someone brings in their kids or if parents are talking "kid talk", I am sort of stuck there. So I leave the office and take a walk (it hurts too much still. But I also don't want to rain on their parade, so I take a break)

I think it will take time. And also speaking with T about everything and processing things.

I am still nowhere near even being able to even consider a date, though, so I guess it's a process. Feel free to PM me anytime