My husband is on a business trip and will be back tomorrow. I've been flying solo since Sunday. He's called as often as he can to check up on things, has texted a lot, etc. I haven't had much sleep the past few nights due to one kid being scared of storms, a teething one year old and never sleeping well when he's gone. This afternoon, along with exhaustion, I was dealing with two fighting kids, a screaming baby and a needy dog at one time. I put the baby in his Exersaucer, went into the bedroom and got hit by a sudden wave of intense anger. My response to that is to always go off somewhere and self injure. Yesterday I dug my nails into my arm. Today I punched my arm several times, dug my nails in and punched my leg. Now my arm is swollen, hurts and is obviously going to be bruised.

Would it be wrong to tell my husband that I ran into the doorframe or something like that? My running assortment of bruises due to lack of grace is an ongoing joke so he would most likely believe me. I don't want him to know things got that hard for me. The kids are none the wiser--they take me walking away to mean mom is about to lose her temper so we need to shut up and quit. In my mind I figure as long as the kids didn't get screamed at or anything it's no big deal. I know he won't see it that way. Advice?