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I feel like quitting therapy. I have a lot on my plate right now, I'm going back to school full time, working 28 hours a week, taking care of my daughter, I'm getting married in April, there just doesn't seem to be time for therapy, that and I'm sick of hashing everything out, I just want to get on with my life, I just want to ignore everything and focus on the work at hand.
Then I get fuzzy headed, ears ringing, in and out of consciousness... And I have to see a neurologist. Who knows if I'm having physical problems as well, and if/when I see this neuro it's likely going to cause me to go back into the psych field from stress... But I don't have time to have physical or emotional problems, and I don't want them. I just want to ignore it all and distract myself. It worked for a few months last year, before the second seizure.
I cancelled t's appointment this week, was my fiances birthday and I had a lot of school work to do. We have an appointment next week but for the following two weeks after he's getting surgery so he wont be in for a while, I may just stop after next week, idk if I even want to go next week, I just want to be normal...
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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