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Originally Posted by Sannah
Have you discussed this with your T yet? I think that you need to talk about what is being triggered up from the past with your T and let all of those feelings out in session. Once you release some of the pressure from that end, while you are in class you need to make the connections that this prof is triggering up your old issues, and tell yourself that this prof is not your mom. Once you can diffuse the past trigger and then stop that automatic connection/trigger in the present, you should start seeing some relief.
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Sannah yes I have talked about this with my T. I've also called my T crying from my car and when I was at home doing homework/reading for that class besides talking about it in session.
Even when I'm in class I say to myself: your professors demeanor has nothing to do with you it's all about her and the feelings you have is about your mom not about you not working hard enough. But the emotions start to take over in waves and I'm able to push them back so I don't lose it in public.
Even thought I've talked about it and understand it I don't seem to be getting any relief. T thinks there is some reason why I'm not letting it go (even though I understand why the feelings are there - for some reason I want to make it about me and not trying hard enough - there's a lot of fear in letting it go). We are going to try some EMDR at my next appointment to see if that helps.