God has given you this physical/emotional body to make choices from which we learn
and grow.
We are not always in control of what happens to us but he has given us the ability to control how we respond to any given situation.
Man may brake your bones, may break your heart, but your spirit is your personal connection with your God.
You say that you dont feel, but you do.
Find your own unique spiritual relationship and your heart will open and your eyes will see what your truth is. This takes time and patience. However when you stick with the truth that will become your faith and with that noone can harm you.