Hey Becca
Sorry your having such a rough time. I honestly couldn't handle 3 kids and a dog all needing me "right now".. No how No way.
Of course self harm is never a good way to deal with emotional overload, that said, as someone that self harms I can relate and understand what why how and when it somehow makes us feel " better". I do not discuss my self harm with my husband he can not and will not handle it well at all . Thats why I have My T . I don't think you HAVE to tell your spouse everything.. Especially if knowing ahead of time the discussion will be exhausting.
Your in my thoughts hun
PM me anytime !!