emotionally and somewhat physically neglected as a child. Abused.

Realized that as long as I can remember had a very hard time organizing, cleaning, making decisions, etc

In addition, very stunted socially all growing up, especially since I didn't have many social opportunities when I was younger. But my parents barely talked to me anyways.

So, tonight I am writing this, and I am acknowledging my mess, disorder, etc
But for the first time I am really accepting it, not getting angry at myself, and trying to take babysteps.

In addition, from when I started college, I always had a hard time making decisions. and things got worse, which instrument to play, which language to study, which friends to hang out with

Would love to hear from others who might deal with all of this or some

Thx!!