it's a little right and a little wrong

I let my S/O read my poem here on PC.....

It is right due to, i let him know that i am not all peachy right now-- even if that is what everyone sees or wants to see

It is wrong due to --- he thinks it is something with him, or he questions it still of why do i feel this way and when i say-- past things, ....

it is wrong due to i feel he questions, so we can deny...

I don't want to deny, i can not deny-- to deny is to kill the very part of me that keeps trying.