Somehow I got into a timezone that is like, not where I live hahaha. I live in CA and I go to a Community College. I don't go to a community college because I was a poor student in high school (a lot of people assume that). I actually took AP classes (calculus, science) and managed a 3.8 GPA (weighted) in high school. But my parents went to community college to help out their parents financially and transferred to a 4 year. My grandparents were farmers and restaurant owners so my parents didn't have much growing up. However, I grew up in the upper-middle class because my parents are hardworking and made a better life for me and my sister. So I decided to help them out and go to a Community College as well since I couldn't pay for myself (they paid for their own tuition when they were my age which makes me feel completely insignificant)

Anyways, so I'm in Community College and I'm getting a D in one class and a C in another!! does NOT happen to me. I have been studying hours on end, i don't party, drink, smoke, or have a social life. My life revolves around school (and ballet) because I want to make my parents proud. It just SUCKS working so hard and not having anything to come from it. NO results. well, bad results. I haven't told my parents yet, they're going to be so mad. I'm going to have to drop my classes, and in Spring Semester 500 classes are going to get cut because of CA's low $ in education!! So i'm pretty much screwed for life. It doesn't help that my older sister is attending a very prestigious college, but she's smart. She doesn't have to study and still gets A's *sigh*

Anyways, work is just piling up. And in my classes i'm like the only freshmen out of 30 sophomores... and the teachers always reference like Calc or English I class. And i skipped those because I got into the higher level classes thru my assessment tests but now I feel behind... Seriously, there is nothing to cushion a fall in College. I can't believe i miss high school

So why life sucks right now: A. College is hard B. I don't really have any friends because I live 45 minutes away from the school C. Parents expectations D. My own expectations E. I injured my achilles so I can't dance anymore so i'm getting fat (i went from 106 pds to 111 in TWO MONTHS)F. at the rate that education is progressing, people my age will have to go to grad school to get a job, and i'm NOT looking forward to that