I havent posted here in a while, mostly because whenever I do, I dont get any support, or advice. But I'm going to give it another go.

Last night I cut myself to shreads. My "boyfriend" wont stop bringing up my drug addiction, I recently started a new one. Im about to punch the next person to even touch me.

Im so ANGRY with myself, and everyone around me. Im so sick of not just my 'life', but life all together. I just want to beat the %#@&#! out of someone, then let them beat the %#@&#! out of me. I cant take it anymore, Ive talked to my T about everything, he's not doing %#@&#! about it. He thinks he is, but Im worse than I ever was.

I want my life to end, but I DONT want to kill myself. I know that doesnt make any sense, but Im so sick of everything.
GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRR