Session was weird I yelled at him a lot he yelled at me a lot. It was a pretty bad session. I even told him it was the worst session we ever had. I accused him of not understanding because he never been through it and I judged him for it. I told him I wanted the session to be over and he said he did too. then after session I emailed him and asked him wth he meant by that and accused him of being as immature as me. But he told me he was just frustrated because he wanted me to be safe.

Then he told me of the new way because he wants me to be more independent and speak up for myself because its something I don't do and he needs to work on me not clamming up and standing up for myself and being insependant as a life skill.

At the end of session I started crying because I was sad. I told him I was sad because I was disappointing him. He reassured me that I didn't.

Then after the session was over I told him I had twisted up EVERYTHING into a negative, and I needed him to email me and ground me into reality so e sent this:

"Remember to try positive an know I'm only pushing you toward the things that will make your life better. I know they are tough things but they will end up being the best things you will ever do for yourself.


Ughhhh I have therapy head.