When I get in to a relationship, all of that crap starts over.....and all of the problems come back. I want to have friends, have a healthy relationship, but it is not worth the problems it causes, not worth the push-pull, the clinginess, and the manipulation that comes out with it, and worse, the eventual abandonment since most people just won't put up with it. I don't know if I'll ever be able to have another healthy relationship. I'm hoping since I've made this realization that maybe I can work it out...who knows? Only time will tell....but I definitely can't afford to try right now.