That's a good question. IDK. I'm seeing my counselor tonight, so I'm eager to see how she sees things. She can usually reflect what I'm feeling, but without "telling me" what I'm feeling.

I did sell the ticket to a friend who is going to go. I feel a lot better. At least my job won't be in jeopardy and now my mom isn't out the money on the ticket either. We all have to do things we don't want to do somethings. I guess this is one of them!

I don't have any down time until the weekend of Halloween. I have quite a busy weekend (traveling for family function, visiting ailing grandmother, and working on Saturday). Who knows...