I was talking to my mom last night and I was really depressed then, too. I told her that I was thinking about going for an emergency walk in session at my university's mental health center because I really needed it. Now, today, I feel less depressed, but almost more angry at myself because I fluctuate like this so often. I can go from being depressed to being just fine in such a short amount of time, so I don't know when/if I should even seek emergency help because it's just going to seem like I'm faking if I am suddenly in a better mood. Does that make sense?

Lately I just am so unpredictable, even I can't tell what I'm going to do next. Sometimes I have such an urge to self harm, and sometimes I feel totally normal. I am so sick of being unstable and not being able to function normally because of it.