I am sorry you are going thru this.

I relate to feeling so sorry and guilty.

And feeling like I can't make it right again.

My mentor told me there is no such thing as a bad person, just people who do bad things and good things.

I hope things get right again and if they don't I hope you can eventually see yourself a human being who is not perfect. I struggle with this, too. I grew up feeling basically bad, like a bad person and the only way I could "redeem" myself was never to make any mistakes, and be "perfect". And I never was able to do that. Everyone makes mistakes, sometimes really awful ones, I know.

take heart,

Carol