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why can't i just be happy hat i have a job? why doesn't it make me feel good that it only took a total of three days? why do i still feel like crap?
why do i still want to die?
from the moment i got up this morning i've been feeling worse and worse and worse. and then, at a red light, just seeing and hearing the ambulance in the lane next to me was enough to take me right back to that bathroom a few weeks ago. and i have to live through it all over again. and again. and again. every detail that i remember.
i just want to die. get it over with already. get it right this time. do enough research to know what i'm doing.
get out
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As she draws her final breath
Just beyond the door he'll find her
Taking her hand he softly says
For the first time you can open your eyes
And see the world without your sorrow
Where no one knows the pain you left behind
And all the peace you could never find
Is waiting there to hold and keep you
Welcome to the first day of your life
Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight
Safe on the other side
No more tears to cry
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