Hi wwie, I think starting any new job is nerve-wracking enough for anyone and to be depressed on top of that....and the idea of working with others who don't know what you are going through and to have to put on that happy face...I would dread it too. But I hope you will give it a chance. It might not solve all your problems but it might help a little. You are so brave to even try for this. wishing you well.