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Originally Posted by Wolfin3
I totally empathize with you. It's like you read my mind about this because I too am going through exactly what you are describing!!! I think it can be "normal" for some at any age...I am 31 and still feeling what you are feeling. I think it's great that you were able to articulate this so clearly, I have not been able to except in a vague poem that I wrote this weekend. 
Random side note: I wish there was some way to control the face getting red thing, lol... |
And I am 45! Since March 1, 2008 I have been a totally different person. I couldn't see it but it was happening...every memory I possessed started flooding into my blood and it has been spilling out every since. I have to stop the bleeding at some point, but I have heard all wounds need air to mend. Band-aids are just not good enough. Repressed memories only get more lethal with time! So dealing with whatever is bothering any of us sooner than later is definitely wise advice. It is hard to face ourselves, to look in the mirror and see exactly what is there.
As far as the contradicting thoughts...are you afraid to be successful? Were you hurt in the past and seeking safety in the familiar? We become persons of habit out of the need to protect ourselves. Perhaps you are feeling vulnerable to your environment and retreating when you really want to get out of your shell and shine! I don't know...