what I am feeling today. (and just in case this post could trigger someone into feeling bad, I was cautious and marked it "beware".) But then again, do I really want to know? I am angry (at parents), sad (crying even) elated (my daughter was nominated to speak at her college graduation) jealous of her and the opportunities she had that I didn't, afraid of going to work today even though I have to face some very important things in my life...okay so I can pinpoint certain emotions, but there are rumblings inside of me and I know my top is going to blow...at someone! Im stepping out of my comfort to post this...I know I am going to hate myself but out of some robotic movement I am following my therapists advice to seek out others for encouragement and advice. I just want to hide. But deep inside I also don't want to be trapped in this game my head is playing. (Scream!) I am totally messed up, aren't I? I have been on this rollercoaster for four years...someone pull the plug on this ride...please! My children and husband are the only things this life gives me that keeps me holding on! take care everyone! and I will too, for their sake okay, that makes me happy! (screaming inside as I submit new thread...