I suspect, that even when you´re very confident and generally convinced of your ability or possibility, fear and the pressure to REALLY and 100 percent
achieve and do something like your life depends on it, presses down on your confidence and ironically makes you LESS sure of yourself.

I think it´s a problem for me. Before my father died, I felt pretty confident about my way in life and that I´d be able to achieve good things.
But when he died, I got giant fears: I NEED to achieve, I NEED to be good enough so I better be perfect, to make sure not to be not good enough because I´m on my OWN now, my life safety is dependant on only me.

This giant NEED and MUST to achieve, this fear of falling if I don´t, made me feel less able and less confident in the end.
I think it´s the pressure.

Does that makes sense? How can I ease some of it?