Thanks everone for your support. I did seek medical help friday evening at local hospital. They held me ovenight untill I could see the Doctor(Psyc.) Which I thought would not happen untill Monday. On top of that they were holding back on medicating me until I saw A Doctor, talk about Panic Attack!! I'm on 160 mg Meth and it's 11:00 in the morning on Saturday and I have not been medicated looking and feeling like it will be another 2 days until I see Any kind of meds.
Then all of a sudden a man walks up to me and asks my name. Itell him, I'm the person he has been looking for. IT WAS A DOCTOR, YES.
Well after sitting and talking for 15 min. I'm told I will be released with scrips for 2 meds and my meth will be waiting for me when I get out of his office. I was out in the beautiful weather by 12:00.
Going in in my condition and the thought of possibly ending up in worse shape ended up working out for the best(my little prayers may have helped).
The gave me an anti-depresant and thorazine so I can get a good nights sleep. The thorazine was given to me Fri. nite and I woke up feeling rested for the first time in 5 years. I did take it again last nite(Sat), now here it is 8:00 Sunday morning and feel rested and Great.
I don't know if it is the experiance I went through or the meds that are making me feel this good; maybe a combo of both.
Anyway I feel great today and for now that is all that matters!
Tomorrow is another day...
And abot that meth I'm taking, I asking to start a detox of that garbage 1st thing monday morning. I could not find 1 Doctor, Nurse, or Patiant who had any thing good to say about it's long term usage, they all told me to GET OFF.
So I'll give it a shot I have nothing to loose.
I can only hope that my other meds keep me feeling this "normal" .

Thanks to everyone for their support, you helped kick me butt and get me started on a more positive road,

THANK YOU ALL,
Ken M.