Hello, I posted originally months ago to say hi, but haven't posted since, life got pretty wild.

But I could definitely use some advice, if anyone has it.

I am holding in my hand several fancy letters from each of the main psychiatric care locations in the country I'm living in (I'm an expat - moved over seas 2.5 years ago) that say I'm a borderline - no surprise there, since I've been diagnosed the exact same way for years, but couldn't afford (or find) much in the way of treatment when I lived in the States. However, each says that they are unable to help me because I don't speak the native language well enough for their doctors...and they don't have doctors who speak English.

I am beyond frustrated. I spent so many years coping in my own (usually destructive) ways just to get through. I've finally moved somewhere where I have the time (loads of it) and insurance to get help, and it's a wash!

Has anyone else ever tried to get help in another country? Were there any resources for you out there? I keep getting told to "find my own therapist", but the first one just over-medicated and under-treated me, and the others I've spoken with won't deal with low-functioning borderlines (am I one? Eh. Depends on the day, weather, state of my laundry pile, alignment of the stars...I'm sure you know how *that* goes).

Additionally, each time I deal with a new psychiatric center, I get my hopes up, and I'm not really able to handle any more of the word "no", so I'm getting reluctant to keep seeking treatment that I'm afraid won't happen.

Any tips?