T mentioned my csa name today. I felt anger then fell into silence. T said saying his name seems to put me back in it. To true. She asked me if I could put words to what was going on. I couldn't until near the end when a small voice whispered "I wish a dragon could have roared over my head". T said "yes there was no one you could talk to about what was happening". I remember her saying that in today's world I would have been put on the at risk register. I growled at her that in that case a lot of people let me down back then because no one rescued me.

I haven't left session feeling this **** for a long time.