I'm like spiraling... I didn't go to school, I'm in trouble for that. All I wanted was to talk to t. And she texted saying she won't be able to talk for a while. What?!?! She is supposed to be there. She didn't even give me any coping strategies. I want to hurt myself. But I've been there. And if I start, I won't be able to stop. I'm so overwhelmed and so triggered. I don't trust anyone and I want to run away and never see anyone ever again. I should never have let myself trust again. It's too hard... And it doesn't end well.