I agree with hanners and think a therapist trained in this area would be helpful in sorting out what you really want. Most cross dressers are actually heterosexual men who simple enjoy wearing womens clothes. They have no desire to be a woman physically and still want straight sex. If a man wants to dress like a woman and have physical changes as well, then he might be transgender. A therapist could help you sort out where your desires fall. Don't mess with any hormones until you figure this all out and don't get into any internet products. Good luck.