Personally I think you should be going out with friends(friend) and meeting new people and having FUN. I know you have a boyfriend, but he isn't THERE. You wouldn't be cheating on him -- you'd just be meeting new friends. You're too young to be sitting at home all the time. This is a great way to meet new people. And I have a feeling that if you went out more, you wouldn't hate your job so much. I think alot of your depression is because you don't get out enough. It's more environmental than anything. I think if you got out more, your depression would ease up. I wish you'd try it, and see what happens. And you're really too young to be tied down to someone who doesn't even live anywhere around you. That makes for a difficult relationship.

See what happens -- go out several times with your friend -- see if you have some fun -- without feeling GUILTY. There should be NO guilt involved cause you're NOT doing anything wrong!!! Try it, okay? You deserve it. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee