hello there PK

what a difficult situation you've got there. I am not professional at advising, but maybe you want to try my opinion. For me, I think you should find a way to reveal your true self. No one can ever live in pretension. I know it is very hard. But once you did it, everyone in your community will eventually accept who you are. You are afraid of your family's reaction. But you have to face them. They will surely accept you because they love you. Maybe you need to have a serious conversation with them. Explain yourself, make them understand how you feel. just be true to yourself.