Hi Rainbow,
I know, this word would triger me too. Because I share so much with a therapist I feel very close to them, and sometimes forget it's a professional relationship. I felt this way about teachers too. One of my college professors became a friend of mine. I feel I learn better when I have an emotional connection to the professor and feel good being around them. I apreciated it when they took the time to really get to know me, ask how I was, ETC.
Anyway, I know tuesday's session was really hard. And probably more so due to you being away for so long. I really hope that next week goes better. Also, what's your DBT leader's take on all these issues? Just curious what she would have to say as another therapist looking in on the situation.