((((Miswimmy))) I just saw this thread. I tend to lurk on pages because I'm not really sure how to respond, or that my words will be helpful. But I wanted to tell you that I definitely get where you're coming from. Being triggered like that is so difficult if you don't have your T there to help you through it. I think you said earlier that swimming isn't an option for you right now to calm you down. Is there any other calming activity you can do in the meantime? At least to distract you until you see your T again?